That feeling when you want to watch the Hannibal finale

[next_to_normal]

but you're legit not sure you can stay awake the half-hour until it starts.

You guys. YOU GUYS. I have not, in all my bitching and moaning about ~nausea and ~vomit, discussed how INSANELY TIRED I have been lately. I knew (because it was listed as one of the side effects, and also the pharmacist was like, "No, seriously, don't take this and then try to drive a car") that drowsiness was one of the side effects of Compazine, aka anti-nausea medicine number two. And I recognized that I was sleeping a lot, like more than is normal, even for a dehydrated and malnourished person, and that even the nature of my sleep was not normal.

It felt like being SUCKED DOWN into sleep, like I'd get into the cocoon of my bedcovers (or just curl up on the sofa or - awkward - once sitting at my desk at work) and just be KNOCKED THE FUCK OUT. I have never slept so deeply in my life. I still woke up 3-4 times a night to go to the bathroom because I still have Crohn's, but I'd get right back in bed and it was like

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ASLEEP.

It was actually kind of awesome, as far as sleeping goes. Slightly less awesome for the parts of my day when I needed to be awake, like, you know, AT WORK. (Actual conversation I had with a coworker: "Were you just... staring at your keyboard?" "YES. YES I WAS. I WAS DEFINITELY NOT SLEEPING.")

Anyway, the reason I am telling you all this is because I stopped taking the Compazine yesterday. Apparently, it causes something or other to show up on my EKG, which is considered an "adverse event" by the people who run the study for the new Crohn's drug I'm about to start, so if I want to be in the trial, I need to be off all anti-nausea meds. And I was kind of like, "Well, fuck, I'm still puking at least once a day, so how much good can it be doing anyway?" So I agreed to stop taking it for the weekend and see what happened and if everything was terrible I'd go see my doctor and we'd come up with an alternate plan that didn't involve this particular study.

Except I stopped it, and I woke up this morning for my 3 am bathroom trip, and I couldn't fall back asleep. It was like I'd RUN OUT OF SLEEP. That's what it felt like! I'd gone to bed at 8:30 pm - after a 3 hour nap earlier in the day - and my body was like, "You know what? We have had enough sleep for now. Let's be awake now."

And it was the craziest feeling because I suddenly realized I hadn't actually felt that way in over a week. 

Except it was still 3 am, so I managed to doze until around 7:30 and then marveled once again at my ability to bounce the fuck out of bed. There was this almost invincible feeling, like THIS IS THE MOST AWAKE I HAVE EVER BEEEEEN.

But now it is almost 10 pm and I am a very normal sort of sleepy. And yet, Hannibal...

(For those that are wondering, the nausea is still there but manageable (for now). No idea if the Compazine was doing anything at all, or if I'm still feeling the effects of it, even though the SLEEP SUCTION seems to have worn off. Also, I just discovered today that my right ear is closed - like it needs to pop but it won't - and I don't even know how or why or how long it's been that way! WTF even IS this stuff I've been taking? WHAT ELSE HAVE I MISSED IN THIS FOG?)

And after all that, the Hannibal finale is preempted by FOOTBALL. ARGH. Guess I am off to bed, then.

Comments

[goldenusagi]

For the ear, you could try this ear popping exercise. Take a deep breath, close your mouth, hold your nose, and then blow like you're blowing your nose, immediately followed by a swallow. Do it two or three times together, a few times throughout the day.

You should feel at least a little pop, but uh, if you don't, ask your doctor? lol.

[next_to_normal]

Thanks for the tip. It seems to be opening slowly. It's not all the way there, but I can hear? It just still makes a crackly noise when I blink, lol.